Life is a journey

It's only by your grace, That I'm still here, that I wait, Waiting for the sun to shine on a cloudy day, From depression to joy, your word will not return to me void, I love you even when you don't bring me joy, I get annoyed and irritated but you're still on my mind, I always wonder if something is wrong when you've gone quiet, But I've been told that that means you're about to do something, maybe a crazy something, Maybe those dreams and visions will come to pass, Maybe I'll attend my second dance class, Maybe I'll have a relationship that will last, And maybe I will not have to prove my worth, Because you know me and your word does not return to me void, Even if I feel empty right now I know you don't mess with my joy, Because you want what's best for me, you want my joy, You don't want me to feel saddened about this boy, I know you love me I know you care, But sometimes I feel like that love isn't there, I don't feel it, I don...

Fear. It's something most of us deal with. But why do we fear when God is for us? If God is for us who can be against us? For we do not have a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind, But have you let God inside? Have you let the Lord God Almighty shine his light? Have you read the word or have neglected it for some time? For our faith is wavering, we have lost sight, Put on your armour of God and the shield of faith, Because it's God that will save us, he always paves the way,  He always makes a way, where there is no way, So trust in the Lord God Almighty, He will never leave nor forsake you, He doesn't want you to be stressed or worried, He simply wants to free you, He wants to free you from the wild thoughts that enter your mind, The spirit of fear that is dwelling inside, Because we have no fear with the power of Christ, That expels all darkness and gives us life, A life free from sin and a life free from darkness, A life within him and complete aw...

I knew when you responded without seeing your name appear on my phone, I had a gut feeling it was you and would go and see what you said, I knew when you'd seen my message, I'd wake up just before you've sent a text, And I wondered if I was going crazy or if these were signs, Signs that we were destined to be in each others lives, Signs that you were the one I'd marry, that I'd be your wife, Signs that you were going to be the father of my kids, that we'd create life, But the truth is I'm not sure, God said you were but not how long for, Maybe you were meant to be, but not for too long, Or maybe I was overthinking it all along, Or maybe you were and it was meant to last a lifetime, But instead of fighting the battle the devil won and we lost the fight, We lost each other, you were no longer in my life, We went our separate ways and you were doing just fine, I thought I could block you out but I had thought wrong, Because every time I...

I thought I was healed but I wasn't fully, Because spiritually I was okay but I wasn't mentally and physically, I was comforted whenever I'd cry alone, It's like one moment I'm crying for help and the next I know I'm not on my own, Like if I died today I'd be happy because I'd be in a safer place, But I've started this marathon I need to complete this race, I was hurt but I was okay, God helped me, he eased the pain, He was always there to save the day, Whenever I felt like I wanted to give up and throw everything away, I would pray to God and ask for happiness, And within a moment I'd feel comforted, I'd feel his warmth, I'd feel his presence, Whilst I was in the storm, I wasn't stressing, He helped me be still when I was panicking, He helped me feel peace when my heart was hurting, Although I struggled to leave my bed I was okay, Although I couldn't eat I was okay, Although I cried every time I got home I w...

I'm crying my eyes out, Praying in my heart that I won't touch a drink, To take away the thoughts, I don't want to overthink, I couldn't lift my voice to pray but I hoped he'd hear me, I'm getting baptised tomorrow I can't give up, If I touch a drink now how could I give my life up? Knowing I drank today and allowed myself to get drunk, I couldn't do that to him, I couldn't do that to us, I tried telling myself it's just one drink, it won't do any harm, I just want to feel nice and for the pain to be gone, But who am I kidding I need to stop telling myself lies, Instead of turning myself towards drink I need to turn myself to Christ, And whilst I was crying I began to heat up, I felt comforted and managed to feel the Lord's love, For the Lord had wrapped me in his arms, Letting me know it'll be okay and he'll help me remain calm, Although I was upset I felt at ease, That's something only the Lord could bri...

I'm at work and it's empty, The glassware, the people, there was a lack of surrounding, The sound of pure silence the atmosphere was eerie, And out of nowhere this lady screamed "JESUS IS COMING", You see Jesus is coming very soon, It could be in the morning, evening or afternoon, Today, tomorrow or maybe next week, You tell people they need to be God fearing but do you practise what you preach? If Jesus came now are you sure of your place in heaven? If you're not then you need to be before this happens, Don't wait until it's too late thinking that you have time, That you're too young right now, you'll be serious further down the line, Give your life to him now and accept him as your saviour, For if you don't accept him as your saviour he cannot save us, Get baptised and make that commitment to him, A commitment showing him you're serious and are no longer a slave to sin, The fear that I felt was a fear I've never ex...

My heart aches as I step closer towards my home, Knowing that when I'm in my room I'll feel alone, Knowing tears will trickle down my face, This is the only time I can let it out there's no time to waste, I've held my tears back all throughout the day, Trying not think about it and putting on a happy face, Even though I smile and laugh along with my mates, You're all I seem to think about at the end of the day, I can only pretend I'm okay for so long, Until reality hits me as soon as I get home, Why does no one take me seriously? Is it because I'm too nice or am I too ugly? I look in the mirror and burst out crying, The thought of you with someone else kills me, I'm dying, Thinking about her seeing your smile and kissing you underneath the stars, Thinking about you holding her tightly in your arms, Thinking about you looking at her the way you used to look at me, Treating her so nicely the way you did with me, Seeing and talking to ...