Life is a journey

You're no longer holding on to that person, It's more like you're holding onto the memories, Stop thinking about what you could have been, And accept that its just not meant to be, They're somebody you used to know, Well at least you thought you knew, They turned out to be different, And it's hard to accept the truth, You're always focusing on the good, And never at the bad, You hold onto that hope, And that's what makes you feel sad, Thinking one day they will change, But when will that day come? Tomorrow, next week or maybe next month? Next year? If not you'll just wait for one more, But you can't do that anymore life's way too short, There just isn't enough time, To be waiting around, For someone that doesn't treat you right, For someone that makes you feel down, That couldn't see your worth, But that doesn't make you worth less, You're putting yourself under stress, Because you didn't know

They say sleep is for the weak, But some people are actually physically weak, Mentally and spiritually weak, That all they want to do is be in their bed sheets, But being in their bed sheets isn't enough, They want to sleep when life gets rough, They don't want to experience things when they get tough, Being awake is draining, With all the drama, the pain it's always raining, There isn't a brighter day, But they hold onto that hope and stay, Hoping that things will change, Hoping for a better day, Whilst awake they question whether it's worth the pain, Whether it's worth staying, Whether they can go another day, They feel like they can't but don't want to cause further pain, By leaving their family in the rain, So all they want to do is sleep, Sleep for as long as they can so they don't feel weak, Sleep so they don't have to overthink, Sleeping brings peace and gives you dreams, Waking up means dealing with your heart a

You'd think loving with anxiety is hard, Well it is and it's not, It takes you ages to feel comfortable around someone, And to be able to be you, But when I met you, It was easy with you, There was something about you, Your personality shone through, I could sense you were beautiful, And there was so much more to you that drew me to you, You could tell we were getting closer, You'd kiss me and I'd wrap my arms around you uncontrollably, I would look you in the eyes and be wondering, Wondering how you're so beautiful and make me so happy, How I managed to feel so comfortable after always panicking, Wondering whether I should wrap my arms around you from behind, Hug you for a while and hold you tight, Wondering if it's too much I'm constantly battling my mind, Wondering whether I should ask for a cuddle in the middle of the night, Wondering if I should sit on your lap, I just wanted to be by your side, But I kept it to myself, Because

They say that you can scream Scream if something's happening But what if you scream and no one is helping You're crying your eyes out yet no ones helping What if you scream and no ones listening What if you're trying to let it out but it's just not happening Frozen and you can't let it go Like ice you're rock solid and cold You can't move your mind has froze You're in shock and nobody knows Nobody knows that you can't just say no Nobody knows that you can't just go Or you don't want it to be labelled as rape so you go with the flow Your mind can't take that it's happened again You're tired of feeling low You're scared of what they'll do to you if you said no What if I get beaten again and my jaw is froze What if it's worse and they kill me so no one knows What happens if you overdosed You get drunk and they take off your clothes You can't even move and you can't say no Your mind is corru