Life is a journey

My heart aches as I step closer towards my home, Knowing that when I'm in my room I'll feel alone, Knowing tears will trickle down my face, This is the only time I can let it out there's no time to waste, I've held my tears back all throughout the day, Trying not think about it and putting on a happy face, Even though I smile and laugh along with my mates, You're all I seem to think about at the end of the day, I can only pretend I'm okay for so long, Until reality hits me as soon as I get home, Why does no one take me seriously? Is it because I'm too nice or am I too ugly? I look in the mirror and burst out crying, The thought of you with someone else kills me, I'm dying, Thinking about her seeing your smile and kissing you underneath the stars, Thinking about you holding her tightly in your arms, Thinking about you looking at her the way you used to look at me, Treating her so nicely the way you did with me, Seeing and talking to

I'm tired of fighting but not receiving the same energy, For once I want it reciprocated back to me, I'm tired of crying whilst you're smiling, I'm tired of caring when I don't cross your mind, I had to delete you from my life so I could move on, Because you wasted my time all along, Seeing other people whilst I saw none, Having others on your mind but for me you were the only one, The only one I'd think about, The only one in my heart, The only one I wanted to see, But I guess I lived too far, See if you really like someone you'll make that effort, Distance makes the heart grow fonder it could only get better, But for you it was too much, you wanted it to be convenient, You weren't willing to give up time so instead you became distant, So you pursued others and instead of giving up time you gave up, You gave up completely without fighting for us, I guess I just wasn't worthy enough, Why was I not worthy enough for your love?