Life is a journey

Everyday I have that same memory, The same memory that's playing right inside of me , Questioning whether it's a dream or reality, Or whether it was really just the death of me , Everyone thought there's no way that could be, To everyone else I was still happy and breathing, But to me, it was a massive change of scenery, I didn't have the strength to get up and leave my bed you see, The way I gained weight gave me even lower self esteem, I didn't want to go into college with everyone judging me, They would see me smile but that was all they were seeing , They'd question why I would still be partying and drinking, But to me that was my only way of escaping, The aching and all the thoughts I was shaping, I guess you could say I'm good at pretending and faking, Because those were the rumours they were making, Nothing has ever hit me this deep, I'm telling you after this I could barely even sleep, Everywhere.. is where I would weep, Fr

I'm going insane, I never knew that you'd cause me this much pain, I'm not just walking in the rain, But I'm suffering the damage from a hurricane, There's not much left of my remains, My soul has left my body it's gone away, Since then I haven't seen a brighter day, There would be sun but even then I'd be in the shade, I was slowly beginning to fade, You've hurt me over and over again, It was like hurting me became the new trend, I don't even know where to begin, Perhaps the time you had your arms wrapped around my friend, Or the time that we came to an end, The time that you got a girlfriend and nothing made sense, Or the times where we'd argue and things got intense, The amount of times I wanted to tell you I missed you but I couldn't press send, Calling you on private just to hear your voice again, All I could do was pretend, Pretend that I hadn't lost my best friend, I always ask myself how did we end up th