Addiction
I finally prevented myself drinking again Drinking whenever I am around men I faced something I thought I never thought I'd be able to face again Even though my anxiety was kicking in After what had happened to me I thought that was the only solution To make me feel comfortable in an environment I'm not comfortable in To do things that I wouldn't normally be doing To forget the reality of what I was facing I caved in drink so that it could help with forgetting But then I realised there was just more mistakes I was making The same mistakes from which I should be learning But I make them again thinking that it could be helping Helping me get over a situation by doing it again But it became more of an addiction An addiction I thought would help me get over it An addiction that helps you forget A way that helps you do things that you won't remember so there's nothing to regret But really I'm still scared of what could happen next So I choose to