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Unanswered Prayers

Why do I feel so lonely?  My smile seems bright but my soul is empty.. I feel like nobody cares about me.  I feel like people see me, but they don’t really see.. Me.  What do I do to obtain joy?  Do I go out drinking and spend time with boys? Or do I go to church because ‘in His presence there is a fullness of joy.’ The thing is, I don’t feel joy and I certainly don’t feel your presence.  It feels like everyone is getting that touch from heaven.. except me.  Instead I bleed..  Instead I count to three and pray I fall asleep.  I’m sorry.  I’m sorry that I don’t feel joy.  I’m sorry that I’m not your perfect daughter.  I’m sorry that I don’t feel laughter.   I’m sorry that there’s no happy ever after.  Unfortunately I live in misery… Unfortunately I’m not who you want me to be. You keep telling me that you want me to be happy; But if that’s true then why won’t you help me? Why won’t you deliver me from this evil? Why won’t y...