Life is a journey

I thought I was healed but I wasn't fully, Because spiritually I was okay but I wasn't mentally and physically, I was comforted whenever I'd cry alone, It's like one moment I'm crying for help and the next I know I'm not on my own, Like if I died today I'd be happy because I'd be in a safer place, But I've started this marathon I need to complete this race, I was hurt but I was okay, God helped me, he eased the pain, He was always there to save the day, Whenever I felt like I wanted to give up and throw everything away, I would pray to God and ask for happiness, And within a moment I'd feel comforted, I'd feel his warmth, I'd feel his presence, Whilst I was in the storm, I wasn't stressing, He helped me be still when I was panicking, He helped me feel peace when my heart was hurting, Although I struggled to leave my bed I was okay, Although I couldn't eat I was okay, Although I cried every time I got home I w...

I'm crying my eyes out, Praying in my heart that I won't touch a drink, To take away the thoughts, I don't want to overthink, I couldn't lift my voice to pray but I hoped he'd hear me, I'm getting baptised tomorrow I can't give up, If I touch a drink now how could I give my life up? Knowing I drank today and allowed myself to get drunk, I couldn't do that to him, I couldn't do that to us, I tried telling myself it's just one drink, it won't do any harm, I just want to feel nice and for the pain to be gone, But who am I kidding I need to stop telling myself lies, Instead of turning myself towards drink I need to turn myself to Christ, And whilst I was crying I began to heat up, I felt comforted and managed to feel the Lord's love, For the Lord had wrapped me in his arms, Letting me know it'll be okay and he'll help me remain calm, Although I was upset I felt at ease, That's something only the Lord could bri...

I'm at work and it's empty, The glassware, the people, there was a lack of surrounding, The sound of pure silence the atmosphere was eerie, And out of nowhere this lady screamed "JESUS IS COMING", You see Jesus is coming very soon, It could be in the morning, evening or afternoon, Today, tomorrow or maybe next week, You tell people they need to be God fearing but do you practise what you preach? If Jesus came now are you sure of your place in heaven? If you're not then you need to be before this happens, Don't wait until it's too late thinking that you have time, That you're too young right now, you'll be serious further down the line, Give your life to him now and accept him as your saviour, For if you don't accept him as your saviour he cannot save us, Get baptised and make that commitment to him, A commitment showing him you're serious and are no longer a slave to sin, The fear that I felt was a fear I've never ex...

My heart aches as I step closer towards my home, Knowing that when I'm in my room I'll feel alone, Knowing tears will trickle down my face, This is the only time I can let it out there's no time to waste, I've held my tears back all throughout the day, Trying not think about it and putting on a happy face, Even though I smile and laugh along with my mates, You're all I seem to think about at the end of the day, I can only pretend I'm okay for so long, Until reality hits me as soon as I get home, Why does no one take me seriously? Is it because I'm too nice or am I too ugly? I look in the mirror and burst out crying, The thought of you with someone else kills me, I'm dying, Thinking about her seeing your smile and kissing you underneath the stars, Thinking about you holding her tightly in your arms, Thinking about you looking at her the way you used to look at me, Treating her so nicely the way you did with me, Seeing and talking to ...

I'm tired of fighting but not receiving the same energy, For once I want it reciprocated back to me, I'm tired of crying whilst you're smiling, I'm tired of caring when I don't cross your mind, I had to delete you from my life so I could move on, Because you wasted my time all along, Seeing other people whilst I saw none, Having others on your mind but for me you were the only one, The only one I'd think about, The only one in my heart, The only one I wanted to see, But I guess I lived too far, See if you really like someone you'll make that effort, Distance makes the heart grow fonder it could only get better, But for you it was too much, you wanted it to be convenient, You weren't willing to give up time so instead you became distant, So you pursued others and instead of giving up time you gave up, You gave up completely without fighting for us, I guess I just wasn't worthy enough, Why was I not worthy enough for your love?

I went to sleep just like every other night, I shut my eyes, no prayer came to mind, The dream I had was so vivid, It felt so real I thought it was lucid, But that's where I went wrong, No this isn't a dream this is another realm, I was in the exact same position I went to sleep in, The exact same room layout, how could I possibly be dreaming? But I couldn't move, I couldn't leave, My room was pitch black I couldn't see a thing, I tried to turn on the light's but it just wasn't happening, I didn't understand what was going on with me, I reached for my phone but I couldn't reach it, To call for help, someone please stop this, This wasn't sleep paralysis, this was something else, It didn't feel right, I was all by myself, I couldn't leave my bed but every time that I did, I'd end up back inside it, it was so weird, I was on my back sliding on the floor, Trying and trying to get closer to that door, I tried to sc...

Why? Why do you love this man when all he does is cause you pain? Why do you love this man when he has a negative impact on your brain? He’s driving you insane, your mental health’s in a state, Yet you still love him at the end of the day, Why? Because you opened up to him, because you let him in, You gave him a part of you and he gave you a part of him, Now that you’re connected, your souls are together, So even if things aren’t going right you want them to get better, He disrespects you yet you seem to allow it, You can’t stop thinking about him and thinking what if, What if he changes and what if he improves? Changes his behaviour and the way he moves? But ask yourself what if you moved on and found someone else? What if you get to know them on a serious level this time first? Wait until marriage so the connection is genuine, It’s not deprived from indulging in sexual sin, Have a deep emotional connection and fall for their soul, Instead of f...